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I am not dead somewhere I promise.


I can’t believe it’s been almost 6 months since my last post. I felt I owed you all an update before you all get your pitchforks out and start for my house. Thank you for all your emails, your thoughts, your questions, your words of encouragement.

First of all, I’m ok. Much has happened in the last 6 months with me. I’ve been on an incredible spiritual journey learning the supernatural healing power of God. This happens NOW. We are all able to receive this. You and Me. Now before you all think I’m one that flew over the cuckoo’s nest, I assure you my brain functionality is 100% and I have not joined some type of cult. The presence of God is real and tangible and I want to share it with you all.

I am going to be real honest here. What I am about to say doesn’t mean that I am abandoning any of you. I feel an obligation to you because we are all in this together to get out of it. Not to cope. I don’t want to cope. I want freedom. I have pushed Lyme out of my thoughts. I don’t talk about it. I don’t read about it. I don’t follow any blogs about it. I don’t go to forums about it. (well maybe a couple times). The more I let Lyme in my life, the more I get into a pit of despair, a black hole that I don’t think I can get out of. Any despair in my life is an opportunity for the enemy to come knocking on my door. By enemy, yes I mean the devil. (I am not sure how many Christian readers are on here, so I will be basic).

Yes, the devil exists. (More on that in my next post)

All I need to focus on is the love of Jesus. The fact that He died on the cross to save us and heal us of all diseases. It’s as simple as that.

I just need a little bit more time to tell my story and all the stuff I learned. It’s either going to be a lengthy post that requires you to take breaks, or it’s going to be an entire new blog all together and I will cease this blog. That’s all I know right now.

My current health situation.

But in the meantime, I am taking Chinese herbs. Yes, the nasty, smelly, barfo kind that you drink which looks like you grabbed twigs and what not out of the forest and boiled it down to a soup. On the plus side, I don’t have to boil it, the Chinese Herbalist does. So here’s the story with this:

My neighbour has been telling me to see this Chinese Herbalist for 2 years. I was humming and hawing because seriously, how much more stuff can my body take. After the Humaworm fiasco that happened last time I posted, I didn’t think I would set foot in the herbal territory again.

Backtrack: I have been off ALL meds since November 27, 2013. That is an entire other story. I could go off on so many tangents here… sigh.

So back to Chinese Herbalist. My mom went to see him last year and I’m sure you all know about how Traditional Chinese Medicine works. The guy feels your pulse, you stick out your tongue, and he tells you what is wrong with you. And then you pay him half your mortgage. He was able to tell that my mom had surgery on her RIGHT KNEE several years before without her telling him.

Chinese Herbalist Conversation:

Him: Please stick your tongue out.
Me: ok.
Him: Thank you.
Me: So ya, I have this bacterial infection called Lyme, blah blah, I have vertigo, my digestive system has seen better days and blah blah.
Him: I’m concerned about your uterus. (mumbling something incoherent due to his accent).
Me: My uterus?
Him: rjerkwerjewf.
Me: Sorry can you repeat that? Endometriosis? Cervical Cancer? Uterine Cancer? You’re freaking me out.
Him: Don’t worry, if you take my medicine, it will all clear.
Me: ummm ok.

I gave him half my mortgage, got in my car and hauled ass to the walk-in near my house, and yes freaking out. In the car I was thinking, OMG! I was so wrapped up in my lyme stuff, I totally forgot to mention my monthly issues. It was very messed up, very heavy, I would have to stay home for at least 3 days, there were blood clots, and I thought this was just a result of being on meds for 1.5 years.

I get to the walk-in clinic. I say “Listen, I know that the rules for the current health plan has changed and that we can’t get pap tests every year now, but every 3 years and I know that I am not allowed to get one until July and even if I paid you, you wouldn’t do it, but right now I need a pap test.” (Thank you free healthcare)

I go into the waiting room and eventually into the inside room. I’m sitting there thinking WHAT AM I DOING, WHY AM I HERE OMG WHAT IF THE DOCTOR IS A GUY?. Before that thought even finished, in walks a really thin late 20’s something MALE doctor. I was beside myself.

Western Doctor Conversation:

20 Something Doctor: Hi what are you here for. (he had about as much interest in me as the cotton pads sitting in the jar.)
Me: Something is wrong with my periods.
20 Something Doctor: What are you symptoms.
Me: Heavy menstruation, shorter cycles, extreme pelvic pain.
20 Something Doctor: How long has this been happening.
Me: 2 years.
20 Something Doctor: And you are only checking this out NOW?
Me: Well I have tried and the last doctor I went to denied me of a pap test.
20 Something Doctor: So how do you know something is wrong?
Me: I went to see a Chinese Herbalist. (UH OH)
20 Something Doctor: (Rolled Eyes)
Me: Have you ever seen a Chinese Herbalist? (Why did I ask him this?)
20 Something Doctor: (More eye rolling) No. How did he diagnose you.
Me: He looked at my tongue and took my pulse (I almost started crying because everything that came out of my mouth was getting worse.)
20 Something Doctor: He what??
Me: (I wanted to crawl into the ugly peach coloured linoleum floor)
20 Something Doctor: (Silence)
Me: You know what? Nevermind. I’ll go to my regular doctor, only she will make me wait 3 hours but really who cares.
20 Something Doctor: (His tone changed to being nice now, possibly realizing that I would give him a rate of ZERO on Rate My MD) Oh let us do some tests for you. We will do a pap test, a swab, some blood tests and I’ll order you a pelvic ultrasound. Are you on any meds?
Me: I was on meds for Lyme. (Again why.)
20 Something Doctor: (More eye rolling)

He did the pap test. I do the blood tests, I do the pelvic ultrasound at a lab (I cannot even tell that story, the male readers on here will not do too well.) 7 days later, I get a call to come back in for results.

20 Something Doctor: Hi Miss, you have a fibroid. This is what is causing the heavy menstruation and all the other problems. Also, you are anemic.
Me: um ok, is that serious? What do I do?
20 Something Doctor: Nothing.
Me: Oh ok. Awesome. (My sarcasm was oozing out of my pores.)
20 Something Doctor: I will refer you to an OBGYN

OBGYN Conversation (3 weeks later):

OBGYN: So you can have surgery or get an IUD or take pills.
Me: Um, No, No and more NO.
OBGYN: Let me take a biopsy and we will see what we are dealing with. It’s only 1.5 cm.
Me: (OMG, if this is only 1.5 cm and causing me all these issues, I hear some ppl have them the size of grapefruits. What are THEY dealing with?)
OBGYN: Are you planning on having any more children?
Me: I don’t know.
OBGYN: I can cauterize the area so you can’t.
Me: UM NO WHY WOULD YOU EVEN ASK ME THAT!

OBGYN does the biopsy. I can’t begin to tell you the amount of pain that is associated with them getting some tissue samples out of your privates. It was so incredibly painful that it deterred me from the thought of ever going through childbirth again. I am pretty sure it rivalled that pain.

So fast forward to now, and I have been scheduled to see him again for possible surgery. No they won’t make an incision on my stomach, but here’s some tools involved. A tube and a camera. Dr. Oz’s blog tells it nicely here.

In the meantime, I’m drinking my nasty Chinese Herbal tea every morning and every night (6 weeks in now). My son and I call it Poo Poo Tea. I still do acupuncture every 3 weeks and she is also treating the fibroid naturally and has success in doing so with previous clients. I take my vitamin C and also a probiotic daily. That’s it.

photo

I have gone longer on this post then I intended to. Sorry for the yammering. I miss writing. On a brighter note, I remember writing a post quite a while back (perhaps almost 2 years ago) about me being really upset because I felt so sick I couldn’t take my son to fly to a kite. So he kept saying “Don’t worry Mommy, when you are healed, we will go and fly a kite.” He will constantly draw pictures of me and him flying a kite because he knew how much it meant. This was going to be a significant day for me because we always said that when I am better I am going to take him to fly a kite. Now I kept waiting for myself to feel totally 100% before I took him out but I realized that I was actually scared. I needed the perfect day, the perfect temperature and the perfect pink dress to make this day special. And that was never going to happen. I needed to embrace the time NOW. No matter how I felt.

Well last Sunday, after what seemed to be 8 months of winter, we had amazing weather, a little chilly but the wind was strong enough for a kite. So we went out and did this. I am not wearing a pink dress, he is not a skinny stick figure, and the grass is photoshopped to green rather than barf brown, but this picture is a significant milestone to my healing.

kite

Hope you enjoyed this update and I’ll chat soon again with all the other stuff.

Visit to my new Naturopath


First and foremost, thank you to all who took the time to email me about my last post here regarding my 5 year old’s IgeneX results. I had to let that sink in a little bit and was very stressed for about 3 days. My hubby is a very relaxed glass ALL full person and he didn’t think much of it. Perhaps because he hasn’t gone through the hell that I did, but he is the voice of reason and re-assurance. He read my LLMD’s interpretation and said to stop worrying because the answer is right there. Don’t treat based off labs. Don’t treat if asymptomatic.

I updated my last post as I also spoke with my Lyme Homeopath and Dr. Marty Ross regarding the same issue.

My Lyme Homeopath’s response (updated):

I emailed my Lyme Homeopath to get his interpretation of the results and he said this is suspicious of Lyme and to do a Lyme Challenge (if I wish to). The Lyme Challenge (which is what I did back in March 2012) is when you take herbs such as Cat’s Claw or Teasel Root for several days to see if it produces a herx. A 5 year old would most likely do 1/4 adult dose. I asked if this would “awaken the beast”. He said no. But I am not sure if I want to do this because I’m not trying to prove whether he has Lyme or not (like in my case). Infact I want to disprove it. If I were to treat him, I will not subject my 5 year old to harsh antibiotics. If anything, I will do as my LLMD advised on symptomatic kids and start him on the Cowden Condensed Protocol with specific dosages according to weight. However, I need to do more research on that and I need to monitor him on symptoms. In the meantime, my pantry will be cleared out of all skittles, gummi bears and chocolate chip cookies.

Another great point that he brought up was the mention of Dr. Dietrich Klinghardt where his theory is that 70% of people on earth are walking with Lyme antibodies and their immune systems can fight off the infection.

Homeopath’s Bottom line: Don’t treat if asymptomatic.

Dr. Marty Ross Response:

A western blot is a technique used to see if a person is making antibodies that attach to very specific proteins found on the Lyme germ covering. We identify the proteins by what they weigh. For instance, one of the proteins weighs 18 KDa (a KDa is a microscopic unit of weight.) On the western bot a + of ++ or +++ means that the tests detects antibodies against that protein. An ind could mean one of two things: there was a very weak antibody reaction so it is barely detected or during the test some dirt or another artifact showed up on the test strip. So an Ind could be a weak antibody reaction but is not always. A test is positive if there are antibodies against 2 of the following, 23-25, 31, 34, 39, 41 or 83-93. Ind do not count in determining a true positive. Having said this, I would interpret the results as very weakly positive given the number of ind findings at the 6 important proteins.

However, having a positive test or even a weakly positive test does not prove one has Lyme. We also have to consider is there a risk of getting it, the symptoms, any physical findings. So in the case of a person like your son who does not have any symptoms, I do not treat. It is possible that even if he has Lyme his immune system is dealing with it. I do not use antibiotics in this situation because they may not rid his body of the infection if it is present, it is also possible they could cause any Lyme to become dormant which is much harder to treat. Finally, even if he is on antibiotics, it is not clear how long to treat given that he does not have symptoms.

Yes, some of my patient had Lyme infection but not disease for many years and then they became symptomatic. Again though it is hard to tell who this will happen in.

Regarding the 18 +, the Europeans consider it to be one of the important proteins. I sometimes consider it, but prefer to look at the reaction to the six proteins I discussed earlier.

Dr. Ross’ Bottom line: Don’t treat if asymptomatic.

So there is God’s answer; via 2 highly reputable LLMD’s and a Homeopath who specializes in Lyme.


Back to the topic of this post, a few weeks ago I received an email from www.danceintherain.ca introducing a Naturopathic Doctor who was willing to take on 10 Lyme patients at a very discounted rate. This ND has many Lyme patients, however is not a specialist in Lyme and wanted to start learning and treating. She attended one of Dr. Murikami’s lectures while he was visiting here a few weeks ago and felt the need to reach out.

I quickly emailed her to see if I was a suitable candidate and I was. I drove 40 minutes today to Richmond Hill, Ontario and met with Dr. Angela Lee of Vital Checks. My appointment was 1.5 hours and we spoke about my entire medical history, current supplements and antibiotics I am on and took my blood pressure (I am low). I was quite surprised that many of her Lyme patients are also seeing the same LLMD as me (many doing fantastic).

I wanted to do an allergy test panel but will do at next appointment as she didn’t have available kits. Looking over my supplements and latest blood labs, I was recommended to take Iron because of low ferratin levels. That was about it as most of the supplements I am on covers almost all the important stuff. She will also be starting me on a weekly treatment of IV Vitamin Therapy (Myers’ Cocktail), tapering off to once a month as needed. Myers’ cocktail has been used to relieve respiratory symptoms of acute asthma attacks, upper respiratory tract infections, chronic sinusitis, and seasonal allergic rhinitis, pain associated with migraines, muscle spasms and fibromyalgia, as well as chronic fatigue syndrome and cardiovascular disease. {Wikipedia}. The IV infusion will last about an hour.

My question to you: Have any of you done the Myers’ Cocktail and if yes what was your experience with it? Good or bad? Did you herx? She advised me to eat something before or I may puke! Did I tell you I absolutely hate puking?

If any of you are in the area, she has a couple of spots left at this discounted rate (very very reasonable). Please contact Dr. Angela Lee directly at Vital Checks.


How I am doing

I have been doing very very well. I went to see my chiropractor today and he also noticed that I am getting back on track and holding my adjustments. I have been holding on to many many good days with minimal symptoms. I would say that I am about 85% back to my old self.

Some points

  • When I start the pulse every 10 days, an increase in symptoms flare, but at a very low level. Every round of pulses, my symptoms gets dramatically reduced.
  • My tremors, body buzzing have diminished to about a 1 out of 10. I rarely notice this now if at all. If it does come, I notice it only comes at around 6 in the morning. It doesn’t wake me up. It’s more like if I’m in between sleep and awake, I will notice it
  • The nausea, feeling of fullness still comes and goes. I notice I feel much better if I eat.
  • The drunk, stoned feeling has dimished
  • I usually get symptoms during ovulation and a day before cycle hits.

I can most definitely say that my days are no longer all about Lyme. I am enjoying life right now. Even if I could stay at this stage, it would be great. Lyme has given me the appreciation of life and everything God has to offer. My goal for the next while is to learn how to better support my immune system through diet and nutrition. I know I was supposed to do that Whole 30 Paleo challenge after thanksgiving however I still haven’t had the time to dream up 30 days of recipes. When I do, I will let you know.

Hope you are all doing well….

I’m such a flippin hypocrite.


I think this has been the longest time between posts. That is because I have been running around like a chicken without a head feeling all great and then it’s all fun and games until someone loses an eye. I don’t know what precipitated the reasoning for it because it came out of nowhere. One thing that does come to mind would probably be bad eating.

I have been screaming to the hills and to anyone who would listen that food is our medicine. I was ready to embrace the Paleo way of life. However, what have I been doing? I have been eating breads, strawberry jam, spaghetti with sauce, ketchup, hotdogs, many variety of late night snacking of chips, Doritos, cheetoes, cheesies, “gluten free” brownies, all and any yeast ridden and sugary foods. It was inevitable.

OR, it could have been the germ cycle, bad karma, another lyme curve ball, whatever. Point is, you never know when it hits and that’s the stupid thing. I’m just so literally done with this. Sooooooo absolutely done.

Monday – started my Pulse A treatment. The all too familiar signals started creeping in. Cotton head, fatigue, buzzing head, heart palps. I did my usual Monday morning infrared sauna, which I think may have brought on a herx. I usually notice it getting worse as soon as I get out of the shower.

Tuesday – I was up and down all day with the majority of the day being on the couch. Cotton head again, in and out nausea, hunger, not hunger, weird stomach feeling, like a baby was moving in there. Stomach cramps, but more like menstrual cramps. I notice that symptoms come around ovulation time and according to my app, today is the day (see app below).

Wednesday – Another round of infrared, nausea-ish came throughout the day, I had to whip out the smelling concoction my neighbour made for me, something I haven’t used since May. The feeling of fullness came again, one bite into food and I would feel like gagging. 2 minutes later, I would feel hungry. Like seriously, make up your flipping mind. 5 minutes later, I would be fixed to the chair and couldn’t move because any movement would make me nauseous.  Even the sound 5 year old talking would make me nauseous. Even the sound of a stair creaking would make me nauseous.

Thursday (today) – symptoms diminishing, I see a light at the end of this god forsaken tunnel. I did the body brushing. I manage to do some grocery shopping with my mom for 2 hours in the morning, came home, made some lunch, picked up 5 year old from the bus stop and ran out again to do errands. The majority of the day was in and out cottonhead feeling again. Nausea was probably a 3 out of 10. Just did another emergency infrared in my basement tonight.

As I’m typing this, I’m much better. I hate writing when I feel like crap. Mainly because a) I feel like crap b) I don’t like writing when I feel like crap. I don’t want my posts to be like “OMG, please kill me, I’m dying here, I hate this, why me, what did I do to deserve this blah blah“. Which would scare people, especially newly diagnosed people and really, who wants to read that?

I remember when I was a Lyme newbie, I was searching endlessly on youtube (against my better judgement and warning from Lyme Buddy) and guess what the majority of videos were; people in the midst of herxes. Something very overwhelming to the youngling, wondering if their life was going to be this vast emptiness of despair and pain.

So, moving forward, whatever kind of herx I was in the past 4 days, was still some kind of herx and it did end or is ending. Not nearly as bad as my last major herx, but definitely one for the books. I would consider this my second major one. Yes people. Herxes end. They are just symptoms. I have finally got my head around this one.

As I was on the couch, I started googling (against my better judgement again), but I’m glad I did because I found this blog. lymechronicle.blogspot.ca. I mention this blog because his story is unique and very very similar if not identical to mine. We both started off as being diagnosed with Acid Reflux related issues. And guess what, we are seeing the same LLMD. And guess what, I think he lives within 15 minutes of me. So I sent him an email introducing myself and discussing my weekly woes and he confirmed with me that DIET IS KEY! And guess what again? He went Paleo! NOT a coincidence that I ran into him.

This Saturday, we make our way up to Montreal which is about a 4 hour drive. Then I see LLMD next Tuesday which is another hour out. Funny enough, I haven’t been overly anxious like I would have been in the past. I am hoping that by Saturday, this nightmare herx will be over. At least for the most part. But if it’s not, I’m not too overly concerned.

This morning in the shower, I had this peace come over me. Like I wasn’t worried about the symptoms, and the major journey that I will be taking in the next 2 weeks which involves a 14 hour drive + 6 hour flight which will end with seeing Mickey. I had this overwhelming sense of calm (in the midst of all my herxing) that I just knew God would take care of me. It’s definitely a peace that passeth all understanding.

So… what did I buy at the grocery store? Lots of fruits, nuts, dried fruit for snacks in the car. I know grains aren’t Paleo, but I did need my Ezekial 4:9 bread (at least for next week). I did a search on how to eat Paleo at Disney and there aren’t a whole whack of options so they say. But when I get back, I intend on doing a major shift in my diet.

IPAD app for the ladies: PINK PAD
I got this app about a year ago. I have been tracking all woman’s stuff on there plus all my herxes. You can see my little green “sick” icon on the days I’ve been sick this month and now there are many “happy faces” creeping back into the calendar. There’s a section for notes, weight, ovulation tracker, + a running summary and charting feature, etc. Very handy! Get Pink Pad here!

Ok that’s the end of my post for now… have a good night!

Death.


I took this picture on our way up to the cottage this week. It’s a fitting picture for this post. Dark but with a ray of sunshine. Bittersweet.

About 2 weeks ago, Husband and I went to Chapters. Husband says to me, “Isn’t that Camille?” “It is! Let’s wait for her outside.” I replied. We haven’t seen Camille in over 15 years. We went outside and another 20 minutes pass by and she’s still in the line up inside. By the time she came outside, we felt awkward and kind of hid away as she came out and quickly went to her car. We missed the opportunity to say hi.

This past Tuesday, we got the news that Camille’s mother and husband were in a terrible car accident. Camille wasn’t in the car with them, however her mother had died and her husband and another passenger were seriously injured. We also grew up with her mother and remembered her as such a sweet and loving lady. We did end up seeing Camille again, however at the viewing for her mom in a funeral home.

On the car ride home, we started discussing death and the conversation ended up on another Pastor that we grew up with. I’m sure he was approaching 90+ years. We wondered how he was doing.

The next day, I read on facebook that this beloved Pastor had just died. On the very same day we were talking about him while driving in the car.

This made me believe that God was trying to tell me something. I’m not sure what. This brought back memories of 2 other instances in my life.

About 10 years ago, my best friend just got engaged. We were so ecstatic for her but we were so busy that we didn’t have time to get together. Finally after a month of back and forth, we all had dinner. We kept saying, “Finally! it’s about time!”. The next week, I get a frantic call from my best friend that her fiancé had collapsed. We spent the next 4 days in the hospital with him. He passed away from a sudden stroke.

About 4 years ago, Husband’s cousin found out that she had cancer. She was a vibrant lovely lady. Full of life. After 6 months of finding out she was sick, we made the 3 hour drive with our then 9 month old to see her. She was not the same as we remembered. She was very frail, very thin, after effects of the chemo, I wasn’t even sure if she could comprehend what we were saying let alone recognize us. We went to her bedroom, held her hands, and just sat there, holding back tears. I knew she knew us. I could tell from the look in her eyes. The nurse motioned us to go back downstairs.

Then we heard this commotion. People were running upstairs. I had this bad sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. 30 minutes later, her sister came down to tell us she had passed.

She waited for us to finally see her.

So I can say that 4 times in my life, I was affected closely by death, not including my own. I hear lots of questions “Why? Why did this happen?, Why would God do this?”. My Husband says to me constantly “When it’s your time, it’s your time”. This often got me scared.

But I am different now. I am not scared anymore. I know my heart belongs to Jesus. Does your heart belong to Jesus? What will happen to you when you die? When I know the deceased loves Jesus, I know they are in a better place. Better than here. So shouldn’t we be happy for them? Shouldn’t we be rejoicing? Yes we will miss them terribly in our own lives, but I’m sure they are looking down at us saying “Y’all won’t believe what we are doing up here!”

Know that your heart belongs to Jesus. Ask Him to be in your life now! I am no preacher, believe me, but knowing that Jesus is there with me every step makes living a whole lot better. Makes dealing with ANYTHING a whole lot better!

I found this sinner’s prayer. I first said this when I was 12 years old. Would you read it with me?

Heavenly Father, have mercy on me, a sinner. I believe in you and that your word is true. I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of the living God and that he died on the cross so that I may now have forgiveness for my sins and eternal life. I know that without you in my heart my life is meaningless.

I believe in my heart that you, Lord God, raised Him from the dead. Please Jesus forgive me, for every sin I have ever committed or done in my heart, please Lord Jesus forgive me and come into my heart as my personal Lord and Savior today. I need you to be my Father and my friend.

I give you my life and ask you to take full control from this moment on; I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ.” Amen.

Keep walking in faith. Keep reading the Bible. Keep doing your daily devotionals. Keep praying. Your life will never be the same.

We are all the Woman with the Issue of Blood


On Sunday this past weekend, I was feeling off again, but I wasn’t going to let that stop me from going to Church. Husband was out of town on a business trip (and we had out of town guests staying with us) and sometimes it’s hard for me to get myself out with 5 year old to our church half an hour away. But I did. I didn’t even know what our Pastor was going to preach on. It’s a rather large church, about 2500-3000 people. They are very organized, and normally have the topics posted on their site or on the screens.

5 year old had a really late night due to out of town guests and he was really cranky. He started drawing on the hymn book and I just had about enough, so I took him to Sunday School. I sat back down in the pew and the topic of discussion: Healing.

I’m like GET OUT. So the Pastor’s sermon was on the Woman with the Issue of Blood.

Mark 5:24-34
So Jesus went with him. A large crowd followed and pressed around him. And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse. When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, because she thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.” Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering. At once Jesus realized that power had gone out from him. He turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who touched my clothes?” “You see the people crowding against you,” his disciples answered, “and yet you can ask, ‘Who touched me?’ ”But Jesus kept looking around to see who had done it. Then the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came and fell at his feet and, trembling with fear, told him the whole truth. He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”

Does this sound at all familiar to you? We are all this woman. Her disease was painful, prolonged, and permanent. She was considered ceremonially uncleaned. For her, making contact with Jesus was far more important and she took a risk. She was already ostracized from her religious community as it says in Leviticus 15: 25-37 that any woman who has a discharge of blood on days other than her normal cycle are considered unclean. Imagine going through this for 12 years and not be allowed to participate in anything. She had suffered tremendously both physically and emotionally. Now when the Crimson Wave comes for us women, we are in despair for the 5-7 days. Can you imagine 12 straight years? Now can you also imagine not being allowed to participate in community activities, be with your husband, sit on furniture because you were considered unclean? This woman must have been a wreck.

BUT, the purity of her faith in God healed her. She thought, if only she can just touch his cloak, she will be healed. Our total health is more important than our physical health. We need to work on our emotional and spiritual healing just as much. This woman with the issue of blood had been alienated by countless of doctors, and finally heard of this celebrity healer. She didn’t care what people thought of her, but she waded through the crowd with one mission in mind, to touch His cloak. Jesus goes on to call her Daughter. How many times in the Bible have you heard Jesus calling someone daughter? Only one. This one. Can you imagine the healing that took place in her soul?

This passage always inspires me to keep persisting, and to keep my faith pure. Physicians aren’t the ones that will ultimately heal us. It is God who heals us. Whether by a miracle, or by guiding the physician, homeopath, naturopath, in the end, it is His will.


In other news this weekend, I can’t believe what I did on Saturday. Because Husband went away, I entertained our out of town best friends without feeling ill. Mind you I didn’t take any meds at all, I just couldn’t deal with the constant 1.5 hour interval popping of pills. The day was very long from about 10 am – 11 pm, we were outnumbered by Kids and we did lots of driving to far away places. Something I use to take for granted, but for now, this has been a huge step simply because it was just me and 5 year old, without me relying on Husband to take much of the slack. Anyway, we went to this little train station museum and the kids loved it. This is my little 5 year old enjoying the train ride.

Ok now off to Costco to returned that blasted Flagyl.

Please watch these Healing Videos!


As promised, I have included the videos that I have been watching that were recommended to me from a friend. This isn’t someone that she found on YouTube. This is actually her Pastor. Yes, as you can see, he isn’t the traditional white haired old dude preaching in a suit from the pulpit. He is down to earth, probably even younger than me, and speaks in such everyday language that I can relate to. I’ve watched all his healing videos and have been so moved by them. I need to get down to brass tax and re-watch them all over again. He also does many other types of series, so I really recommend watching them! They are only 10 minutes each, so it’s easy to do 2 sessions a day. Take notes! I’ve embedded the first video here and have put links to the rest of the series.

I also should mention that he did these videos at the time when I first started treatment. What are the odds on timing for this?

Healing 101-01

GOD IS SCREAMING AT YOU!


The writing of this post has been in my head for some weeks now and has been sitting in draft mode for what seems like forever. I wasn’t sure how to write it, but I’m just going to let my thoughts flow and list the events that took place the past 3 weeks in chronological order. It’s kind of lengthy, and might not be easily digested, so good luck reading this!

Event #1
After the Flaygl brought me to hell in a handbasket, I made it back to earth and started googling “God heals Lyme.” This is by far much better than googling “Can Flagyl cause you to die.” I came across a video of a woman of faith who was healed from Lyme before she started her medication. Here is Part 1 below. You can find Part 2 Here and Part 3 Here.

Event #2
One night, my Church had an anniversary service at night. I normally don’t like going on Sunday nights because it’s late and I have to get the little guy to bed and ready for school the next day, but hey I had to live a little. I told my husband we are only staying for half an hour and then we are leaving. So off we went to this special service. The worship was absolutely phenomenal. They did lots of old medleys (which I grew up with) mixed in with the newer generation songs. Well, we stayed for the entire thing which was about 1.5 hours and I didn’t even have the urge to leave my seat. It was like some force had stuck my butt to the seat. I was overwhelmed by the presence of God and what He has done in my life the past year. I heard this voice in me to simply believe that I would be healed. Just believe you are healed. This thought kept occurring over and over. Then I heard a voice saying to stop my meds. Now, I have never really experienced hearing the voice of God, so I’m not sure if it was my own thoughts or what. Or maybe it was that video I saw of the woman in Event #1 who didn’t even start her meds before she was healed.

Event #3
My BFF was also harassing me (which I love her for) to watch these healing videos that her Pastor had posted on Youtube (which I will post in a separate post). Within the first 5 minutes of watching the first segment, the Pastor recites this verse.

Revelation 3:20: “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.”

Now, if you have been reading my blog for some time now, this is the EXACT verse that my little 5 year old kept singing to me for 6 months before I finally listened. I couldn’t even finish watching the video, I just sat there analyzing what this meant and what God was trying to say to me.

Event #4
I was in one of the regular Lyme forums one night and saw a post that went something like this:

“ Should I stop my medication? I am doing this test and am wondering if I should stop my medication. It’s for my own personal reasons, so please don’t judge me, just want your opinion and if any of you have done it, what happened.”

Um. OK. This is no coincidence. I didn’t just have those thoughts run in my head at church and then come across this very same question 2 days later written by someone else? Again, what is God saying here?

Event #5
My BFF came over the next day and I shared with her all the events that I wrote above. We sat there and talked for about 2 hours and she shared with me her life experiences. A follower of Jesus herself, she is saying that all the above IS God speaking to me, it’s if I choose to hear and act on it. I was at a struggling point. I wasn’t sure whether or not I should stop my medication to witness this. Wait, I can’t stop my meds or the past two months would have been wasted. My LLMD would drop me as a patient? What if it doesn’t work? OMG I wasted all my money! If I didn’t stop, does that mean I am disobeying God? I didn’t know what to do. It’s a gigantic leap of faith.

We finished our conversation and went downstairs, the whole time the gears in my head were spinning. My BFF caught something out of the corner of her eye, and pulled out a reading lesson and stuck it in my face.

Keep in mind that this piece of paper was stashed underneath a frosted table which held a TV so I’m not even sure how she saw this, but she did. It was one of the reading lessons from my 5 year old’s Sunday School which taught on Jesus healing the lepers. I had kept it for a reason but forgot all about it. So there it is, now in front me, the words blatantly saying “Do you hear Me?

That night, I wasn’t ready to make that full commitment. Would God put me through such a test as to quit cold turkey on my meds and to trust that He would heal me? Or would he heal me THROUGH the medication? BFF says “Let me put this onto perspective for you. If God asked you to sacrifice your son, what would you do?” Um, Yikes, some pretty heavy stuff. I’m sure sacrificing meds is a whole lot easier than sacrificing your son. And I’m sure it wouldn’t cost me a 25+ year life sentence either.

Event #6
My mom had bought a prayer book for my BFF and myself.  A couple of weeks later, I went to a Bible Store. I was specifically wanting buy a journal and one that had the Jeremiah 33:3 verse on it but no luck. The only journal eye popping to me was this leather bound gold leafed book and I fell in love with. The inscription on the front said “For I know the plans I have for you.” Declares the Lord,” Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you the hope and a future.” Jer 29:11. I settled with that.

Another week passes by and I finally grab the prayer book my mom got me along with my new journal to take notes. I opened up the prayer book and noticed my mom had wrote a bible verse on the front page. I’ll give you one guess as to what it was. Yes. Jeremiah 29:11. Seriously what are the odds.

So I open the book and one of the verses on the bottom of the page is this. Yes, the Knock Knock Verse from Event #3. Ok what are the second odds of this!!!!!!!!

Event #7
My BFF sometimes visits my church. They have Saturday night and Sunday morning services where my Pastor preaches the same word. One Saturday night she went there for a service. I get a text from her as soon as the service ends and it says, “Are you going to church tomorrow.” I said, “I’m not sure, depends how I feel 5 minutes before.” She says “You must go, I don’t care.” I think she was at the point of desperation for me and she spilled the beans. You don’t understand, you have to go because Pastor X’s whole message is on Revelation 3:20 (yep, that’s the Knock Knock verse!) I said “WHAT IN THE FLYING BLAZES IN GOING ON HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

BFF says to me: “GOD IS SCREAMING AT YOU!!!!!!!!”

Event #8
A couple of days ago, my 5 year old was doing laps with his hotwheels and started singing. It was a variation of the Knock Knock song (which he hasn’t sung in about 8 months). It wasn’t even a Christian like version, just saying the words, Knock Knock are you listening?

I stopped drying my hair and looked at him and said, “What song is that?” He said “I dunno. I just started singing it.”

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Ok. So what do you think the series of these events mean? I know for sure God is trying to tell me something. I need to stop and just listen. He is obviously knocking on my door. I need to open it.

When God speaks to you, it can be just thoughts running in your head, to nagging feelings that you experience over and over. This is something that I am fairly new to and still learning. Just be still in His presence. I have still haven’t decided on what I am doing yet, but I will continue to pray on this and seek His word. I do hear a still small voice say to me, “It will all be alright”.

Lyme Buddy


This post is dedicated to my Lyme Buddy. Without having been introduced to her through an equally awesome mutual friend, I wouldn’t have gotten tested through IgeneX. She has been my moral support. She started this Lyme Treatment with me. On the same day. Doing the same exact treatment protocol. Seeing the same LLMD. What are the chances of this? No chances. Only God coincidence. The only thing I am jealous of her right now is the fact that she handled Flagyl better than I.We text and email hundreds of times daily. Good to compare notes on how we are doing. We sometimes chat on the phone for hours. While experiencing my “One Herx to rule them all“, which is still happening as we speak, I think I might have scared her into thinking I was being possessed by a crazy demon.

I woke up to an email from her this morning and I was greeted with this. Thank you for putting this into perspective for me. Love ya!

  • I’m grateful that the Lyme has encouraged me learn how to live a healthier lifestyle
  • I’m grateful that this healthier lifestyle will keep me looking younger… I will soon have better looking skin, tighter fit body
  • I’m grateful that it has shown me the people that love me and the others that I need to remove
  • I’m grateful that I take less for granted
  • I’m grateful that I can see, hear, walk and run
  • I’m grateful I can still snuggle, play and be a mother to my children
  • I’m grateful I can remember and figure things out
  • I’m grateful that I caught this infection early
  • I’m grateful I didn’t have go through this all alone
  • I’m grateful I’m still young and have a long life of good times waiting for me
  • I’m grateful that I am becoming a stronger person

Lyme Disease Healed (Bill Johnson)


One of my best friends sent me this link. I cried when I saw it. I am so happy for this lady and I know my time will come too as will yours. Keep praying, keep your faith and most importantly know that God wants you healed. Look out for my blog post soon on my next installment on Spiritual Healing and how it has impacted me so far in my life. In the meantime, enjoy this link!

Recipes for Repair


I walked into our bedroom and found this. Sitting like that. Opened. Tempting me, saying “Take a bite of me, you will feel so good!” I resisted the urge and proceeded to go again to my husband and start a calm but intense screaming match like this one. I took this picture to deliberately tempt you. I’m telling you that you don’t need this.

Today, in a rush yet again from running errands with a child reminding me every 47 seconds that he was hungry, I had no choice but to get Wendy’s as per suggestion from my husband. I in turn got some sushi. We get home and I couldn’t resist the urge. I took one fry from my little guy’s stash. My immediate reaction. GROSS! It tasted like I was eating a stick of salt.

Being on a gluten free, yeast free, sugarless diet for the past month or so have really changed my taste buds. For the better I must say. I do not miss that fast food. When I think about it, I think poison. Poison that I shouldn’t be feeding my family.

While in my quest to find tasty food for me to eat and not be succumb to bland tasteless food for the rest of my life, I came across this book called Recipes for Repair. It is written for people with Lyme, however there’s a big honking disclaimer right on the front that says “Not Just for Lyme Disease! Also perfect for people with other chronic inflammatory illnesses, autoimmune conditions or food sensitives.So I ordered it here.

When I got the book in the mail, it was smaller than I envisioned, but I fell in love with it. It is so beautifully organized and every recipe in there looks so yummy and tasty. Moreover, the recipes are EASY! AND each recipe tells you whether it’s gluten free, dairy free, egg free, vegetarian or low sugar. It even tells you how to make your own Ghee butter and Mayonnaise. Infact, right now as we speak, I have some salmon marinating in my fridge for tonight from one of their salmon recipes. I can’t wait to taste it.

I must say it’s overwhelming enough to try to feed yourself, let alone your family. When you are sick. With Lyme. And to cook healthy. Who has time and energy for this? My husband has been tremendous support, however in the area of food, I am trying to turn our family around to eating healthy. It has to be a conscious effort on everyone’s part. I, unfortunately have been placed in this situation. I have no choice BUT to eat healthy.

So next time you see some fries, or hotdogs, or pizza, don’t be discouraged. Be glad you aren’t poisoning your body.

To end this post, I found this great link that explains what I am talking about straight from the horses mouth.

http://mobileintensiveprayerunit.blogspot.ca/2012/04/heart-surgeon-speaks-out-on-what-really.html

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